Morgan’s Year of Fear

 

Over the past 14 years of my life I have become a very scared person. I’m shy by nature but combine that with a mental illness that turns everything to do with food or the body into a phobia-fest and you’re not left with very much that isn’t scary anymore. Something has to change before I can every get myself out of the epic rut I find myself in at age 28. There are so many opportunities in life that I have been hiding from and something’s got to give. So, I’m assigning myself some homework. Over the next year I’ll be tackling one fear a week for 52 weeks! Eeek!

To be honest, I’ve been mulling this idea over for quite some time. Ironically—but definitely surprisingly—the idea scared the pants off me. But I know I need a change, serval in fact. I hope that this project will help broaden my horizons, help me live outside my comfort zone, have new experience and enrich my life and the lives I come into contact with. I want to say ‘yes’ when I’d normally say ‘no’. Perhaps with practice, being afraid won’t be as paralyzing as it is right now. Maybe the more I do it, the less daunting scary things will feel.

If we look at the world as a place full of opportunities, not obstacles, everyday becomes an adventure

I want to be happier, healthier and more fun to be around. I want to feel free to reach my goals and live my fullest self.

So here goes nothing. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Here’s how it’s going to work: at the beginning of each week, I will pick one fear from a list of 52 and conquer each one by the end of that week. I will provide a weekly written report of my progress on Sundays, as well as updates on the Braveheart Canada YouTube channel and The Racing Mindcast podcast.

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A YEAR OF FEARS:

  1. Eat at a restaurant
  2. Dance in public
  3. Wear a skirt and/or dress
  4. Get a makeup tutorial at the drugstore/mall
  5. Wear makeup
  6. Buy new clothes 
  7. Go zip-lining
  8. Run a marathon
  9. Stand-up paddle board
  10. Do hot yoga
  11. Buy lingerie
  12. Join a protest who’s cause I support
  13. Join a club
  14. Go for a group run
  15. Get nude photos taken (tasteful ones)
  16. Go to a Zumba class
  17. Write a book
  18. Give a speech
  19. Learn to scuba dive
  20. Sign up for a first-aid course
  21. Ride your bike 100 miles (a.k.a. century ride)
  22. Run an ultramarathon (>26.2 miles)
  23. Apply to graduate school
  24. Create an online store for your photography (e.g. Etsy page)
  25. Promote yourself
  26. Edit the YouTube videos
  27. Join an intramural sport team
  28. Eat a real PB&J
  29. Meditate
  30. Wear a bikini (in public)
  31. Get a manicure 
  32. Get a proper bra fitting by a stranger
  33. Try ‘froyo’
  34. Start a journal
  35. Get eyebrows waxed
  36. Eat a meal without tracking it in MyFitnessPal
  37. Eat a food you don’t like 10 times
  38. Workout without technology
  39. Learn bike maintenance
  40. Email someone you’ve always admired just to tell them so
  41. Take a self-defence class
  42. Enter a photography or writing contest
  43. Learn basic car maintenance
  44. Do a silent retreat
  45. Learn how to file my own taxes (without a CPA)
  46. Admit that I don’t know something
  47. Write a letter to my local government about something I would like to see change
  48. Go solo camping
  49. Ask for a reference letter
  50. Wear the scariest thing in your closet for a whole day
  51. Spend a whole day without technology
  52. Don’t complain or self-deprecate for 21 days

As the wise Miss Frizzle (of Magic School Bus fame) always says:

“Take chances, make mistakes, get messy!”

Feel free to follow along or, even better, create your own list of fears and share your successes with us in the comments. Let’s do this!


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