Year Of Fear Week 14: More Junk in the Trunk

Morgan’s Fear: # 40 Email Someone You Admire Just to Tell Them So

This week I reached out to someone who’s work I really admire. For the past few years, I’ve really started getting into photography and film. Recently, I started watching someone on YouTube whose work I really admire and wanted to tell them so.


Ethan Newberry–a.k.a. The Ginger Runner–and his wife Kimberly Teshima Newberry–a.k.a. Mile Long Legs–have been creating great content for runners of all abilities online for several years now and I’ve been really diggin’ their message. Their positivity and enthusiasm for trail running comes shining through the screen when I watch their videos or look through their pictures on Instagram. Their love for the trails and for the running community are so authentic and I can’t help but smile every time I enter their little corner of the internet.

Ethan Newberry (right) and Kimberly Teshima Newberry (left)

I’ve wanted to reach out to them to tell them how much their work has meant to me for awhile now, but I’d always been too shy to actually go through with it. So this week, I bit the bullet and wrote them an embarrassingly long gush-fest of a letter. I spilled my guts out onto the digital page and was honest–maybe even too honest–about where I’d been and where I was now with everything (i.e. fitness, mental health, relationship status, etc.). To be frank, my candidness kind of shocked me, but, I sent it anyway half hoping to get a reply.

So far I haven’t heard back from Ginger Runner HQ and that does feel a bit anticlimactic. However, I need to actively remind myself that the purpose of this week’s fear was never about the reply (or lack thereof) but rather about overcoming my shyness and negative self-talk that had convinced me that anything I had to say was worthless and not worth sharing. So on that count at least, this fear is one more for the win column.

Chris’s Fear: Junk Bowl Take 2

As promised, I reattempted the junk bowl with much better success than last time. To quote the infamous Will Smith, “Moving on up like George and Wheezy” and if you do not know what I am talking about and you were born between the years 1985 and 1995, you need to go back and get a childhood.

Regardless, I ratcheted up my fear a bit by going more impulsive and planned with my choices and enjoyed the experience more. If you recall my first junk bowl, I was a bit rushed so had to rush my shopping and rush eating it. I also had a nasty tendency to check calories before deciding on a food.

This time though, I took my time and enjoyed the whole experience. Instead of going to the grocery store, I instead went to Bulk Barn, which might be one of my favorite stores because of everything they have from Coffee to baking flour to vegan protein powder–all in bulk containers of course. Since everything is in Bulk, its harder to check calories unless you really try.

I cruised down the aisles and really picked up everything that caught my fancy and meshed with the theme of “Cookie Crisp” (I saw an ad on a YouTube video and was inspired). Here is what I settled on:

  • Salted Carmel filled Pretzels
  • Cottage cheese (they didn’t have pudding so I opted for the next best thing–it adds a flavor of YouTube “bro-ness” too)
  • Two types of cereal–Bran and Chex for texture
  • “It should be a food group” trail mix
  • Quest Bar
  • Mini Chocolate Chip CookiesIMG_9809.JPG


I definitely stepped up my game here but I still need to work on presentation:


With the bowl assembled, I dug in and enjoyed every last bite. I did have a bit of anxiety but I actually would say that this was a fun experience. It was fun to mix and match things and just let loose. My smile at the end was about the same as the bear on the spoon.

I am going to do this a few more times a) because I actually found it fun and b) I still need to do this without a big workout before.

That second point is something I definitely need to work on. I feel like I do compensate a bit when I exercise. Let me be clear here though: I do not exercise to eat. I exercise because I love the feeling of my body when I exercise and my mental state and exploration that occurs when I train. BUT, I do feel like I can let loose after bigger workouts so that I can do these.  However, I need to kick that crutch and tackle these head on without that crutch eventually.


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