Hi team! My apologies for being a late for my monthly progress report but I’ve been sick as a dawg. Now that I’m able to breathe through my nose and have a bit more energy I can get on with the show.
Journaling my way through March turned out to be much harder that I thought. As it happens, I found out just how afraid of self-reflection I am! I guess that’s a good thing to learn so that I can work on it, but, at the same time, it does mean that I was a bit of a weenie for not facing a fear to my best ability this past month. Good thing I have 9 more months to practice.
I have been able to keep up with my daily meditation and going to either the gym or the yoga studio with regularity. Yay for me! The self-consciousness is still there, I just try and fight through it and tune out all the imagined inner monologue of criticisms coming from those around me (in my head, at least, other people are super judgey).
For the month of April, I have decided to try my hardest to not put myself down or be self-deprecating. I know I put myself down way too much and I know it’s a tick I rely on as a kind of defense mechanism. I figure, if I put myself down first, no one else will bother. I’m my own worst enemy and it’s something I need to work on.
As always (unless I get sick again), I will be back at the end of this month/beginning of next month with another progress report.
Stay brave everyone and go face some fears!